It's been a year, for sure. I hope I don't sound glib when I summarize what has happened. In June 24, Jess was killed in an accident. We had been living together for a long time, and were at the point in our relationship when we were begin to plan on getting married and having children.
I was still out of work so I went to live first in the basement of the owner of the bjj school, then with family members. I did my best to deal with the heavy depression that followed her loss by writing and training. As soon as I started training again, I got hit with bronchitis, but since that went away, I've been on the mats regularly. I wrote a great deal in that time, including poetry, stories, and some poems for children. Most of the reason I don't blog any more is because it distracts me from working on other things.
After Jess died, my family gave me a chihuahua to look after, and the dog pretty much saved my life because I could never let myself fall apart completely after that point. Her name is Kit, which is short for Kitsune -- a type of Japanese fox spirit.
I am still out of work. Last year, I passed my state exam and applied to about twenty-five schools without getting a single interview. Right now, I'm applying everywhere, but the biggest and most exciting opportunities seem to be in health and fitness, which is fine by me since I've always been happy working in that area.
I've thought about blogging again. Maybe I will start again. Who knows?
I'm so sorry to hear about Jess. Life is so fucking unfair. It's been almost 2 1/2 years since I lost my sweet Irene and I'm just beginning to come to grips with life without her. I miss her so damn much. The wife of my best friend was just diagnosed with cancer. I was his Sergeant when he began with the police department back in 1972. I Just can't believe that he will lose his wife too. Life is a wonderful thing but it sure can be a fucking struggle.. Hate to hear that you are still unemployed. It would be a scary thing not to have a paycheck. I was fortunate all my life and have never unemployed. Why don't you go down to your local copshop and apply for a job? I miss your writing but understand why you don't blog. Write me a note now and then and maybe I can help cheer you up. Wish you didn't live on the other side of the world (Mass. is like a foreign country to me) When I lost Irene there was nothing anyone could say or do that would make me feel better. It's something I've had to endure on my own. I can only say to you from the heart that I am truly sorry and grieve for you. When I say I know how you feel, trust me, I do. Your friend, Howard
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ReplyDeleteWell, it's been a year. Where's the book? Where are you?
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It's been a year, for sure. I hope I don't sound glib when I summarize what has happened. In June 24, Jess was killed in an accident. We had been living together for a long time, and were at the point in our relationship when we were begin to plan on getting married and having children.
ReplyDeleteI was still out of work so I went to live first in the basement of the owner of the bjj school, then with family members. I did my best to deal with the heavy depression that followed her loss by writing and training. As soon as I started training again, I got hit with bronchitis, but since that went away, I've been on the mats regularly. I wrote a great deal in that time, including poetry, stories, and some poems for children. Most of the reason I don't blog any more is because it distracts me from working on other things.
After Jess died, my family gave me a chihuahua to look after, and the dog pretty much saved my life because I could never let myself fall apart completely after that point. Her name is Kit, which is short for Kitsune -- a type of Japanese fox spirit.
I am still out of work. Last year, I passed my state exam and applied to about twenty-five schools without getting a single interview. Right now, I'm applying everywhere, but the biggest and most exciting opportunities seem to be in health and fitness, which is fine by me since I've always been happy working in that area.
I've thought about blogging again. Maybe I will start again. Who knows?
I'm so sorry to hear about Jess. Life is so fucking unfair. It's been almost 2 1/2 years since I lost my sweet Irene and I'm just beginning to come to grips with life without her. I miss her so damn much. The wife of my best friend was just diagnosed with cancer. I was his Sergeant when he began with the police department back in 1972. I Just can't believe that he will lose his wife too. Life is a wonderful thing but it sure can be a fucking struggle..
ReplyDeleteHate to hear that you are still unemployed. It would be a scary thing not to have a paycheck. I was fortunate all my life and have never unemployed.
Why don't you go down to your local copshop and apply for a job?
I miss your writing but understand why you don't blog. Write me a note now and then and maybe I can help cheer you up. Wish you didn't live on the other side of the world (Mass. is like a foreign country to me)
When I lost Irene there was nothing anyone could say or do that would make me feel better. It's something I've had to endure on my own. I can only say to you from the heart that I am truly sorry and grieve for you. When I say I know how you feel, trust me, I do.
Your friend,
Howard